I’ve gone through physical pain, emotional wounds, financial struggles, and deep personal loss, all back to back. I was sick, had to go through surgery, lost my job, had to move with a broken heart, and lost someone I love deeply, my dad. On top of that, I’m still waiting for a new job offer, and my house loan is hanging over my head like a dark cloud.
It felt like everything was falling apart all at once. I found myself asking, “God, where are You in all of this?”
I was angry. I was tired. I was broken.
There were moments I didn’t feel like praying anymore. Moments I stared at the ceiling with tears streaming down my face, wondering if God was even listening. I came to a point where I almost gave up on my faith. I felt forgotten. Abandoned.
But even when my faith was hanging by a thread, I held on. Somehow, something inside me refused to let go completely. Deep down, I still believed God was with me even if I couldn’t see or feel Him.
And that’s what faith really is.
It’s not about always being strong. Sometimes, it’s about crying and still choosing to believe. It’s about walking through the storm and still whispering, “I trust You, Lord.”
I don’t have all the answers right now. I’m still waiting, still healing, still hoping. But I know this: God never left me. Even in my pain, He was there. He still is.
If you’re going through a dark season, I want to remind you: God is near. Even when it doesn’t feel like it. Even when life is unfair and heavy. He sees you. He cares. And He is working behind the scenes, even in silence.
Hold on. Keep going. Don’t let go of your faith even when it feels like all you have left is a tiny mustard seed.
“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you… When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned.” – Isaiah 43:2
During this hardest season of my life, I love to listened and worship God with these songs:
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