Finally, I say it!
For the longest time, I’ve always avoided saying, “Being a working mom is hard.” Not because it isn’t, but because I believe that words carry power—what we say can become our reality or dalam bahasa melayu "kata-kata adalah doa". I’ve always told myself that if I kept saying it was hard, it would feel even harder. So, instead, I chose to focus on making things work, finding joy in the chaos, and embracing the challenges with a positive mindset.
That’s one of the reasons why I created Borneo Working Mom—to encourage other working moms out there, to make the journey feel a little less overwhelming, and to remind us that we are not alone in this journey. Motherhood and career life can be a tough balance, but I always believed we could do it with strength and grace.
But today, I allow myself to say it: It’s hard.
I feel it's extra hard today because I feel like I am not doing so well in my interview for a new job. My current job's contract will be expire next week. I've been applied for many position, some of it no feedback and today, I went for an interview but I feel like I'm not doing so well. I feel sad about because I really wanted a permanent position right now. I allowed myself to crying over it for 1 hour, then after that, I tried my best to move on. If God will, then I will get the job, if its not, maybe that job is not for me < I will get better position and I learned to improve myself.
But one thing is for sure: I will not give up.
I allow myself to acknowledge the hardship, to pause, to rest—but never to quit. Because I know that after every tough moment, there will be brighter days. I will get up stronger, wiser, and more determined to continue this journey.
As per usual, whenever I feel so down about myself, I always check my word of God's folder in my Awesome Note App. The God's word today, Be still and Let God work! This God's word really help me to move on and that's okay, I’ve learned that admitting the struggle does not mean I am weak. It means I am human.
To all the working moms out there feeling the weight of it all, know that you are doing an amazing job. It’s okay to have hard days. It’s okay to feel tired. And it’s okay to take a break. But don’t ever doubt your strength.
Take care, and let’s keep going, together. ❤️
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